The Flying Turtle Journal

The inner life of a 25 year old, gay, Hmong man. Refugee born, Minnesota-bred, DC resident.

I tried to quit smoking today. 12 hours without a cigarette before I caved and bought a pack. Binge ate and had constant headaches for most of the day while I tied to go cold turkey. I feel like if I kept it up, the whole not smoking thing, withdrawal would’ve drove me crazy. This quitting thing is harder than I thought.

In Response to a Stupid and Popular Text Post

flynturtle:

"I am so sorry to all the people I hurt while I was hurting."

Shut the hell up. If you’re sorry, do something about it. Fix it. Don’t say something stupid about how you’re sorry for hurting someone. Your pain isn’t an excuse to go around and be a shitty person. That quote, that text is…

cogitoreklo: not particularly. I think I just saw an old part of myself in that text post, the self-wallowing and self-pity in that line…I don’t like it. If it mattered and if they cared, they’d fix it instead of just apologizing to themselves about being a terrible person. Forgive themselves, sure. Make amends, sure. But move on, don’t try and justify how terrible their actions were - that’s not an apology, that’s an excuse. If they’re going to apologize, the ought to say “I’m sorry. I was wrong. How can I make this right?” Not some self-indulgent, Lana Del Rey-wannabe sentence. Tragedy and pain begets sympathy, compassion, and understanding, but it’s not an excuse for inflicting pain onto anyone else.

In Response to a Stupid and Popular Text Post

"I am so sorry to all the people I hurt while I was hurting."

Shut the hell up. If you’re sorry, do something about it. Fix it. Don’t say something stupid about how you’re sorry for hurting someone. Your pain isn’t an excuse to go around and be a shitty person. That quote, that text is nothing more than some self-pity bullshit. You’re sorry? Then make it up to someone. If you aren’t willing to, then suck it up and move on with your life because the people you fucked over had too move on, with or without your half-assed words.

Men are confusing. That is all.

robregal:

Real.

(Source: aint-got-nothin-at-all, via kamayami)

hairandbrokenglasses:

jessehimself:

killsave:

revolutionary-afrolatino:

Police shoot teenage special-needs girl within 20 seconds of arriving to ‘help’

On June 3rd, 2014, the Serrano family was having difficulty with a young female family member who suffers from a mental illness and depression. Yanira Serrano-Garcia, 18, had apparently gone off of her medication and became agitated and hard to control.
“[Yanira] wanted to be normal. She wanted to stop taking her medication, and I get it. Sometimes when my feet hurt I just want to be normal. I don’t want to take pills. I get her…all we want is justice,” said a friend of Yanira’s during a community march. 
“Sadly, they mistook her for something she didn’t do, and a cop decided to get his gun out when he could have gotten out his taser, his pepper spray,” she said.
“She has special needs and we just want answers,” said Yanira’s brother, Tiny Serrano. “Who are we supposed to call now when we need help when who is supposed to help us is killing our kids?”


I feel like I reblog this kind of stuff every single day… Same story, different names. And police always use the same fucking excuses because they’re trained in how to loophole the law. 

girl with butter knife in public vs. trained police officer

i am ENRAGED holy SHIT

hairandbrokenglasses:

jessehimself:

killsave:

revolutionary-afrolatino:

Police shoot teenage special-needs girl within 20 seconds of arriving to ‘help’

On June 3rd, 2014, the Serrano family was having difficulty with a young female family member who suffers from a mental illness and depression. Yanira Serrano-Garcia, 18, had apparently gone off of her medication and became agitated and hard to control.

“[Yanira] wanted to be normal. She wanted to stop taking her medication, and I get it. Sometimes when my feet hurt I just want to be normal. I don’t want to take pills. I get her…all we want is justice,” said a friend of Yanira’s during a community march. 

“Sadly, they mistook her for something she didn’t do, and a cop decided to get his gun out when he could have gotten out his taser, his pepper spray,” she said.

“She has special needs and we just want answers,” said Yanira’s brother, Tiny Serrano. “Who are we supposed to call now when we need help when who is supposed to help us is killing our kids?”

I feel like I reblog this kind of stuff every single day… Same story, different names. And police always use the same fucking excuses because they’re trained in how to loophole the law. 

girl with butter knife in public vs. trained police officer

i am ENRAGED holy SHIT

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digi-egg:

└(o ⇔ o)┘ =33333 by 着香料

digi-egg:

└(o ⇔ o)┘ =33333 by 着香料

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my kind of man ( ͡° ͜ʖ ͡°)

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What is the AAPI Movement?

What is the Asian American and Pacific Islander movement? What are its boundaries? Who is and isn’t included? Do they need to operate with a social, racial, and economic justice framework? Is an organization like 80-20 (which is very anti-affirmative action but clearly has a place in the Chinese community) included in this movement? Do you need to self-identify as AAPI to be part of the movement? #AnyHelpInAnsweringQuestions #OrBrainStormingIsAppreciated #IAmNotAnAcademic

I…just thought of a weird narrative structure that may…oddly work right after watching episode two of this Korean Drama called “It’s Okay, That’s Love.”

"If my clothes ain’t tight,
Then he ain’t gone like me.
Eyes on the prize,
So the next girl dress just like me.
I’m so full of promise,
But why promise if I’m gonna just be rewarded
By bad actions.
To him I’m just a transaction.”

bustysaintclair:

meowdypurrtner:

its really important for men to stand up to other men who say terrible and sexist shit

because sexist men dont listen to what women have to say

literally the most important thing men can do if they want to call themselves feminist allies 

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